Loss is Gain

Recently I lost a very close family member, she died right in front of me.  I had never experienced pain like this before.  She had been such an inspiration to my life. I remember how she enjoyed life so. She would tell me stories of when she was a young girl and when she became a wife and mother. You could see in her face how much she loved her grandchildren.  She enjoyed living and understood the value of the moment.

When we discovered she had cancer it was a great shock to everyone. I remember the look on her face and hearing her say that she never thought she would die like this. I remember her tears when she thought about the pain she would have to endure before she finally passed on.

I remember her last days and what I remember most is how she enjoyed the simple things. She would light up if you mentioned Starbucks or Ice cream.  She loved to read long novels and she was writing a book of memoirs.  Her last week on earth was the most difficult. She was beginning to lose her eyesight and it was becoming difficult to formulate complete thoughts. There were times when her legs would go completely cold and she wouldn’t be able to stand on her own.

I read Qur-an and prayed over her just before she died.  I feel pleasure and peace knowing she passed away shortly after acknowledging how much she loved God.

I’ve gained so much knowing this woman. She has utterly and completely blessed my life.  If Allah should allow me to live as long as she, I too wish to someday mean as much to someone.

Rest in Peace “Marjorie T Brown”

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“So Far” The Ghetto’s Been Good To Me

“I earned my respect in the Streets.”

These words resonate in every aspect of my life. Life can be difficult at times, people are not perfect. We make huge mistakes but that’s how we learn. Do the best you can do that’s all anyone can ask of you. Sometimes you win big, sometimes you come up short, but you tried. Stay true to who you are. You don’t have to pretend to be something you’re not to be respected. Actually faking will get you disrespected faster than anything else. I know you know that. Don’t forget to act like you know.